good grief charlie brown

good grief- i think there is such a thing.
at that time in my life when everything really fell apart, including my insides and my dreams and everything i knew or wanted to know, the grief that i had to face was ultimately good.
that is because, a week ago today when that same grief but somehow terribly worse fell into my stomach again, i knew i could handle it.
i've been through this before.
it will be okay.
it's always okay.
i don't want it to be okay with out him, but i wanted that before too, remember?
and then it was okay
and i'm okay
and that person before, that person who ripped apart my life, he doesn't mean a thing now.

only, things have been a little different this time.
there is hope for us and a tiny pinhole of light at the end of this tunnel.
i suppose what i mean to say is we are working things out indefinitely. 
we are madly in love, it's true. but it's also important to be madly in love with yourself. if that makes sense. and as long as we both want what is best for us because we're good people and we're of worth, then we can give what is best to each other too. and as long as we keep the spirit the most important part of our relationship, then i firmly believe we can fight this together until the end. 

and that's quite nice because he smells rather good.  :]

xoxo