sweetly

we have had a lot of light lately. it seeps in through the slats of the blinds and paints the walls. it soaks in to the fibers of our house and into our skin and i can feel it defrosting my bones.
i am elbow-deep in reading and teaching this semester. i got the position at discovery ranch so now i spend my monday and wednesday afternoons with 8 behaviorally challenged teenaged boys. it is actually rather fulfilling and my desire to become a teacher has been validated.
ginny spends most of her time snoozing. i think she gets bored. we have tried to be outside more recently due to the warmer weather.
then it snowed today. still is, in fact. but it's okay, i tend to like the snow more this year since we've had so little. it feels like a blanket; like it hides us and protects us from prying eyes.
we need to find a new place. that prying-eyes feeling is starting to get to me.
i like fresh starts.
overall, i feel happy. happy to be breathing and soaking up this light. happy to be with the man i love and to be on the cusp of trying to conceive.
i do so want a baby in my belly. we've been trying since september. i've always feared that i would be unable to conceive. but we'll give it more time. it hasn't made me sad yet. we have only been married a year and a half, after all. i have an appointment in march.