block

Sometimes I overwhelm myself with myself. I have a new goal to write daily, but it's tied up in class assignment so it has to be academic writing. I am going to attempt to include both academic and creative writing in my daily allotment, but I already know which I'd rather do always.
I get so blocked up when I attempt to write here! I literally have never stumbled so much when writing as I do here on my blog. I question, pause, doubt, rinse and repeat. And I do this to the point where I end up doing one of two things: writing ONLY creatively, (see yesterday) or not posting at all. I feel as though I really can't be engaging or a good writer at all when just saying run of the mill things. So, I need to reconcile my goal. I need to focus on academic writing and blog writing in order to get better at both. I will be writing here daily and it will probably be painful for me and for you. So feel free to vacate! No, but really. I think that my main problem here is that I know, whether it is 2 people or 15, that I have an audience of sorts. Knowing that sets me up immediately with insecurities, because I am that audience for many other people in the blog world, and thus I know the harshness that comes with the gig. I have 20 minutes to catch up on my blogs for the day, so if your post isn't intriguing within the first two lines, I'm already gone. I also come across a lot of different styles through my reading, and I find myself attempting them individually and simultaneously, which further hinders my writing. For example, I want to write like Cjane, with her witty humour and endless readability, yet I want to write like Naomi, short and sweet and sharp. And then I also would love to be like Shutter Sisters, who writes with a power, a tone that hits you right in the middle and pulls you in gently until you forget that you were ever anywhere else.
Final block-maker? I get all caught up in my photos! I love my photos! The temple, above? It is so inspiring to me that I shot that! That I can do that with something as little and in-capable as my iphone. And yet, I am obsessed with it. I want to create create create. And I need to find a way to integrate both photos and words seamlessly here in order to feel successful.
It has come to my attention that I never posted my Art City Days photos. Is that possible? Someone please alert me if you saw pictures of the carnival and cotton candy stand because I love those photos and they must have a home here. :) Here are a few more shots from our little temple trip yesterday:

I could not get enough of those flowers and that sun.